However, I did want to post something briefly about a community that holds you accountable and how that's so crucial to family life.
Classical Conversations and BSF have been a recent communities for me while another community that we've been a part of together for 9 years is our church family. Just as way of background, our church is 30 minutes one way from our house and up a mountain. So while I have always immensely enjoyed the teaching and fellowship, it's often hard for me to ask a church friend to "pop over" (because it's 30 minutes or more to my house) or to ask them to watch my kids to make an appointment. However, when I shared with my small group 2 years ago about my teeth woes, one woman (who normally never gets to interact with kids in the nursery) told me her days off where she could come and watch the girls if I needed to get dental work done. I was hesitant to ask her because for convenience I usually try to ask my neighbors down the street, but they were going out of town and I was going to have to wait another 2 weeks if I canceled the appointment. I really felt the Lord prompting me to ask for her help even if it was just for an hour and a half.
When I returned from my appointment she said the girls behaved wonderfully (I about fell over because my unofficial label these days is "referee" with those two!) and she said that spending time with them was a blessing to her because it helped her fulfill her role within the body of Christ and to honor the commitment she made at our girls' baby dedications (not an infant baptism ceremony) to help raise our children in a Christ-filled community.
I was blown away by how she saw both her role in accountability within the church community when all I was worried about was burdening her with two girls who can seem like a handful to me as a stay at home mom. It occurred to me that while I was allowing someone to serve in a way that helped us both as adults, it also helped my girls get that much needed intergenerational time within the Body. Servant leadership is what this woman displayed to me and to my children and I was very convicted about my own attitude sometimes toward wanting to serve others (including my own family) only when it's "convenient".
So... I'm still here living out my imperfect existence while learning many important life lessons about serving others while my blog stays a bit quieter for now.